S.Gonzalez

You’re causing more problems then there has to be.

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You’re pissing me the f*ck off. You’ll be pissed if I text another guy but it’s okay for you to talk to girls. You pay more attention to them. You wouldn’t care what I was writing about anyway. I’m writing about you, by the way.

I pray for you nearly every day hopeing for the same thing. I want to know you will be saved. It makes me sad knowing your not.

My life is already f*cked up without you putting more stress on it. Honestly, I don’t need you or anyone else to bring more hurt or corruption in my life. You are the reason why people go off doing stupid things to themselves. You are the reason why people see themselves as worthless and nothing more than taking up room in the world. You have a great sense of nerve to be saying sh^t. Especially on twitter. Do you see yourself as cool? Do you see yourself as popular by posting those things? Well newsflash, your not. You’re shallow. You’re fake. You’re incredibly rude. If you wouldn’t have your significant other, you would have no one . People see the real you, and it is not a pretty site. And for people who do, god bless there soul for being innocent. I’m happy I found out who you truly were. You are a no good. You care about yourself and no one else. And I won’t feel bad when you need someone and no one is there because you did it to yourself.

Like not text me back is kinda irritating. So when I’m trying and your not, don’t be upset at me for people actually paying attention to me. Especially if they are boys because at least they have the decency of noticing me.

Well to begin with, my Friday started of alright. Nothing special. And to be honest, I don’t remember it up until 7th period. I walk into there and it is a tad awkward vibe going on. After roll call it begins. The ASB talks about how we let down one of our leadership students and how he was frustrated how people couldn’t go to there right appointment for muddy buddy’s and how there were people who didn’t bring their item. It was frustrating because I feel like we always get lectured. This whole year have been lectured. But it didn’t end there. Next, one of our ASB vice presidents said how our falcon attire was a disappointment because we weren’t all wearing it. I was wearing a class shirt so it counted, but not really. So after we were lectured there, our leadership teacher talked to us outside. When she spoke about our effort and how it was lacking my heart broke because I didn’t want to disappoint her. I didn’t want to be hearing this lecture and I didn’t want her to be upset but it ha came to that point. I am truly sorry for her feeling that way. I wanted her to feel proud, but her feeling was opposite from that. At the end of the class we were told our awards banquet was taken away. I was shocked and mad and frustrated. I was really looking forward to that night and it upset me. I wanted to know my silly award and see others. I wanted to bond with the others more because we only have so much time together, but it was taken away. Another disappointment. So next year I am making sure it is the best class ever.

The next period was dumb and I could not wait to get home. I received a text about awards night and how I was invited to a fellow leadership students house for a get together but I just wasn’t in the mood for going. But good thing I didn’t because the unexpected happened. He finally spoke with my dad. It happened. What I have been waiting for for more than two years. And I was extremely nervous the whole time it was happening but happy too. It was like he actually cared for something I wanted. It was good and well. That right there made my night a lot better. Yes, it is different now but in a good way. I’m happy he knows where I stand and where my parents stand. I am happy that he had the courage to do what I want him to do. I love him and I always will. Hopefully it doesn’t change our relationship drastically. I just want to take it day by day.